trying to blog...

Heart's Day Giveaway :)

My friend Sweet's blog gives away a perfect gift this season... Follow her blog and you might win it for yourself! :)
http://pensandlens.wordpress.com/2010/02/12/3rd-forever-21-giveaway/

14th!

I remember when I was in high school, freshman year to be exact, I had my first taste of Valentine romance.  Coming from a public school in my grade school days, I didn't really pay attention to such drama.  But when I entered high school, I was introduced to new things and new people.  I met so many people, girls and definitely boys. Compared to the boys in grade school, high school boys were way better in many categories you can even mention.  

And so I grew fond of one particular boy.  No need to mention his name since he is not the main topic of this blog. ;p 

Anyhow, to make the long story short, I fell for him.  He was the first one to ask me "Can you be my Valentine?" Although the date never happened and "we" never happened, but the euphoria that that moment gave me was incomparable.   Hahaha! Even now I still smile every time I recall the memories of that particular freshman year. Nothing beats the first time, eh? ;p The following Valentine's days after that were sub par.  I was looking or trying to get that feeling I had during my first time, but nothing measured up to the "kilig" I had during that day.   Well, it's just a memory now.  And it has been such a long time since I had someone to call as Valentine (of the opposite sex to be specific). 

With that story told and with Valentine's day being a few days to go, I have a few thoughts to share.  Here goes...

There are lots of "tags" people use to call this particular date.  In this day, people tend to be more romantic, expressive and in love.  They would go beyond all means to prepare stuff for the ones they love.  Countless days of contemplating what special thing to do or what romantic gift to buy.  That's for people who are in love or in a relationship or just plain romantic.  But what about for people who are single, alone, not in a relationship,  like me? How do we celebrate a day that is associated with lovers and couples?  

For me, the answer is simple! Celebrate it just like any other day. In my honest opinion, you don't have to wait for one significant date to profess your love to the people who are important to you.  We don't need February 14 to remind us to be romantic or to be expressive.  We have 365 days in a year, 24 hours a day, 7 days a week to show to our loved ones how big a part of our lives they are.  Treat everyday as if it's Valentine's Day and the world would be a better place.  Free hugs anyone? :)

And as bitter as this may sound, you don't have to be in some sort of a relationship to be able to spend Valentine's day.  Family and friends, they are worth celebrating with. Who else was there when you had no one? Of course, them! They're always in standby mode to cheer you up when your down, kick your ass when you're being a prick, bail you out in times of troubles, cry with you in times of sorrows and believe in you when no one else did.  I love my family and friends... they are my lovers! They are my Valentines!

And that is why I'm having a date with my friends this Sunday, February 14 Valentine's Day.  Dinner date with loving friends and when I go home , I'll spend quality time with my family.  

Happy Valentine's Day everyone! hugs and kisses y'all. <3 <3 <3 mwahmwahmwahtsuptsuptsup <3 <3 <3

Blue Wednesday :(

Wednesday is my favorite day of the week. But sad to say I hate this particular wednesday. I am sick! Runny nose, sore throat and muscle pains all over... I missed a coffee date with my gurls and I think I'm gonna bail out on a night out with workmates tonight.  Being sick is such a pain in the ass! You can't do stuff because your body seems to not have enough energy to function.  You can't think well, your irritable and appetite is lost.

It's such a bummer when you're sick...So it's true what they say, "Prevention is better than cure".
Load up on vitamins, Vitamin C in particular.
Drink lots and lots of fluids (water, juice).
Get enough rest and sleep, 8 hours max.
Eat a balanced meal...
Exercise!
Have a positive outlook in life... and last but not the least, PRAY!

Check this out!

My friend Sweet's blog... http://pensandlens.wordpress.com/2010/02/05/2nd-giveaway-and-hackers-boo/
cool give away's up for grabs! :)

FORT

Words and pictures... They sort of transcend a lot of meaning. And for a not so vocal type of person like me, they sort of become tools for me to share what I feel. That is why I feel for photographers and bloggers, they use pictures and words to show their feelings, emotions and points of view. For bloggers, they pour their heart and soul through their sentences and as for photographers, they capture images of people, places or events that translate to what they really feel.

With that said, I try my very best to be both. I started this blog last year. Though I don't make a lot of entries, I made it a goal to write more often. And as for the photographer side of me, it's a not that hard since I take pictures every single day of my life. The hard part is capturing the right angle so as to show people a different view of the usual things they see.

Here are a few images I captured on my visit to Fort San Pedro...a historical heritage in heart of Cebu. My cousin Mark encouraged me to visit this place with him, first to take pictures and second to become his subject in his photo shoot. ENJOY! :)

The entrance to the FORT..

Inside the FORT...

A history unfolding...

Mark's angle...

Us...

Happy Birthday MOM! :)

Today is the 48th natal day of my mom.. Llany or "Mayans" as people fondly call her.

She is the best mom for me! She works hard every single day just so me and my brother could have a comfortable life...we may not be the richest people in the world but we can get by one day at a time. I'm so thankful that though I don't have a father (my parents are separated), God gave me my mom and she has been a mother and a father all in one package! :) And though I don't tell her often, I love my mama sooo much and I would do everything for her!

Happy Birthday MAMA... I love you! :)

pouring my heart out in writing

When I'm experiencing great emotions, that's when my creative juices for writing come out.. At one point in my life some few years way back, I found my self in deep pain and frustration and viola! a few poems were materialized.

And I wanna share it ... Here goes me blabbing about my heartache... :)

Wind

Just when I was becoming strong…
Just when I started to be whole again…
A strong wind came and blew me off my balance
And no one was around to catch me…

I didn’t know what to do…
I couldn’t fight back the wind
I couldn’t stay standing either
That’s why I just allowed myself be blown away

And then it hit me
I was alone and not strong enough to stand my ground
I wasn’t whole enough to combat the strong wind
I thought I was, I thought I was already mended

But I wasn’t… I’m still the same old weak and broken me
I was just pretending to be fine, just pretending to be okay
But the truth is, I’m not
And it took a very strong wind to wake me up to that certain reality

I thought I should blame the wind but instead I should thank it
For hadn’t it came, I would never be freed from this illusion
The biggest lie I’ve told my self, that I’m good and fine
For the wind taught me more about life and about me...

FLING

You came into my life in an unexpected way
And for a long time I’ve never felt this way
I was really happy with what’s happening
I never really thought you were coming

I was telling my self that I would just enjoy the moment
That I wouldn’t fall too fast for my heart has just recovered from a torment
In that way I’m protecting myself from hurt and misery
So that for myself I wouldn’t feel sorry

But as the time passed, I’m beginning to like you
I’m starting to like the feeling that I have when I’m with you
You make me laugh and smile
And honestly I haven’t felt that in a while

It went on for days and to myself I was asking
Where could this be leading?
I was afraid to ask you what we are or what is this we have
And I just told myself this was way too early for love

But an unexpected turn happened
And it really was so sudden
You just became so cold
Could this be because you’re bored?

I didn’t see this coming
I wasn’t really expecting
My whole life made a full turn
Again I was left alone to burn

I don’t know why this keeps on happening to me
All I really wanted was to be appreciated deeply
Was this because you just wanted a fling?
Or what we had wasn’t the real thing?

Maybe you were just there to fill the emptiness
Or maybe just to distract me from my loneliness
There are lots of maybes and possibilities
But whatever I say this is just part of reality

Maybe you were just passing by
For some reason I don’t know why
Maybe just to teach me something
Or maybe you’re really just a fling…


Big Dismay

I lie awake crying myself to sleep
Hugging my pillow trying not to weep
I wonder why we ever got this way
Falling into pieces, just a big dismay

We were such a good team together
I thought that what we had was forever
Thinking of the future that’s what we would do
But baby now we just can’t continue

It’s so sad we have to end up like this
Your hugs and kisses I’ll always miss
But one thing that this break up has done to me
That’s to love myself and be free


Deep Slumber

When will I ever find you?
When will I ever have a glimpse of you?
I was long lost in this journey
When will you ever come and rescue me?

For years I’ve been waiting
When will you ever hear my calling?
All that’s been missing in my life is you
So that I won’t be forever blue

At night, I pray before I sleep
That somehow I would never ever weep
Awaken me from this deep slumber
And enclose me with your love forever…


Goodbye

Do I have to say that I hate you?
Do I have to say that I’m mad at you?
Can’t you see that I’m hurting?
Can’t you feel my longing?

You always take me for granted
And to stay away from you is all that I wanted
But no matter what I do
Everything reminds me of you

I know that it’s wrong for me to go on like this
But it’s you that I always miss
How can I stay away?
When you always know the right things to say

If only I had the guts to tell you
I know that these words of mine are true
And only these words can set me free
And maybe someday you could just let me be

Just let me be
And so you can save my heart from misery
We could really never be
So just bid goodbye from me

When will I be able to write stuff like these again? I hope the next time I can write poems again, it's not because of a heart ache... I wanna be inspired by a great emotion, and that is LOVE! :))